A lot has happened once again…this time I am staying in control…Ari is…well she is dead to the world right now :/ Which sucks cause I think she would really love school. Arine started pissing her off and behold! Ari stayed in control and put her in her place ^^ which means their done for good :) I can finally rest knowing that battle is won. HOWEVER Jacks mom has made it all worse…Ari couldnt handle it anymore and disappeared. So today I hung out with one of our friends to create happiness around us. I think it worked cause I can feel warmth coming off her now. No one knows I am here, which sucks sometimes but its life right? I mean its our fucked up split life…
I really dont know why I post anything anymore >< no one really reads this anyway :p I may start doing what Ari is doing - nude photos for her tainted site ^^ Since we are the same I could just slip some in there with hers and no one would know hehe sounds like a plan. OOHHHH I could make some sexy videos and everything. Ari is worried Jack might freak out about it, but I dont give a fuck. Let him. I will happily bring up I have to deal with his mother XD
Ok next class is about to start so I gotta get going, at least I get to learn some things for a little while ^^
Ciao, Amber P.
Feel like I’m dying on the inside right now….I’m not letting Am take over like I do most of the time trying to stay in control of this…talking to Arine trying to stay sane, my head hurts and I want to cut this is bad….I don’t even know how this happened this time :(
I have been feeling sick to my stomach DX I dont know what to do….I have a bad cough at night and headaches through the day…I also feel like I wanna throw up all the time (but that could be because of my stomach hurting so bad)
Arina is pregnant….Which Ari is somewhat jelly about :( She hates it that girls who needs to grow up more or ones who dont really want the baby (Arine isnt the second) are having kids all the while her and dark are trying to have one :( She hasnt told anyone that they are, but it still hasnt happened…She is getting really depressed about the whole thing and feels about ready to give her. She lied a few days ago to Dark and told him she has given up, but truthfully she is really hoping that she is now. And thats why she is sick :/ I keep trying to get her to calm down and try not to hope for things like that, but sometimes there is no stopping that child.
I am kinda hoping me or her get pregnant soon. (Dark still doesnt believe in me, but im here) If the child is mine she/he will have my demonic blood coursing through their veins. If they are Aris, they will have fairy blood. Either way any kid of ours will be messed up in the head XD
Dark is not wanting to make a decision that NEEDS to be made. Either his mom goes or I go….I am thinking of having Ari and I move in with her step-parents….They keep offering and I dont really wanna say no ya know. Ari wants to stay near Dark, but at the same time when she brought all that stuff up to him he basically said he doesnt see her doing it. That he is tired of seeing her ‘half-ass’ shit all the time and that, I keep telling her to just do it. Screw him and his fucking life. If he thinks she wont do it, then just fucking do it. ya know.
Im coughing is getting worse, I really should go to bed *yawn* I will try to talk to all of you later, and I will try to not stay gone so long ^-^